reckless.

marked by lack of proper caution;

careless of c o n s e q u e n c e s.

2009 was just that.

a complete disregard of rules & limits; regulations & boundaries.

making everyday an adventure & never once having a plan.

nights that went on forever & mornings that were almost impossible.

a freedom words couldn't do justice & a heart that just couldn't mend.

a time of mistakes & regrets; a time to laugh uncontrollably at these same mistakes.

now with 2010 in full swing, i can only look back in awe of what i've accomplished.

what were these awesome accomplishments, you might ask?

well, for one, coming to terms with something i'll never be able to change; being okay with it.

taking school seriously for the first time in my life & actually giving my parents a quarter grade report to brag about.

overcoming one of the most epic rejections i've endured to date (i don't think anyone, not even myself, will ever understand that one.)

but what i'm most proud of & am most grateful for, is the rekindling of a relationship that has truly changed my life in ways i can't describe.

You can have all this world,

Just give me Jesus.

though i know i fall short everyday of my life, & i say things i shouldn't say,

think things i shouldn't think, do things i shouldn't do, i am never without my Jesus.

i am one huge disappointment & i screw up more than i do right, but through it all,

He made my bright less slight. i am a constant work in progress,

but i can assure you i've never been happier :)

i don't know what 2010 holds for me.

but i'll stand here with my arms outs t r e t c h e d ;)

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